Hey You!

Well hello there my little blog. I haven't seen you in a while. How've you been? Lovely to hear. Me? Oh, well, pull up a chair and I will tell you. So, you remember my breakup with Chris and how splendid that has been going for me. Anyhow, the silver lining in it all is the fact that I have once again come back to God and have a different love story to blog about now. Remember that old adage, "Be careful for what you wish for 'cause you just might get it"? Well, that my dear bloggie has been the theme of this latest chapter of mi vida.

After I broke up with Chris,I left Yuba City and moved back to Chico where I now reside with my sister. I would wake up early to pack up Lollie and I and head off to work a 8 hour shift at a preschool. True, I had been praying for God to give me direction: on whether I should stay there at the Yuba preschool or start looking for a job in Chico. "Please God, please tell me what YOU want me to do, wherever you want me to go Lord, I will go. Please, please ,please Lord I need your help now, bless me with direction and give me some guidance". Yup, that was my prayer. Oh boy did he deliver. I am now unemployed. Yeah, you read that right. I have lost my job at the preschool in Yuba City. So now, I am job hunting in Chico.

Normally, I would feel really bad about something like this.I would beat myself up a lot, wallow in my own self pity, and use all the negative energy inside as a validation for eating all the Ben & Jerry's Cherry Garcia and pork fried rice I wanted. But not THIS time. Yeah, I'll be honest, at first I was a little scared, but then I remembered the scripture I had found during one of my morning studies:

"..do not be afraid, do not be discouraged. Be strong and courageous.
This is what the LORD will do to all the enemies you are going to fight". -Joshua 10:25

There it was right there. The morning I wrote that on a simple piece of note paper and taped it to the back of my front door, I had just a simple idea of daily encouragement, but I had no idea it would also serve as God's voice to me on this very situation. My heart is beating rapidly as I am typing this. I battle with the devil every day, every minute. I know he is trying to keep me down. I am eternally grateful that I have God on my side, holding my hand, being my spiritual father and best friend. Thank You Lord. I love you soo much. It is this realization that gives me the courage and strength to, as John Wesley put it so simply, have a "cheerful  patience" to see what God wants me to do next. Yeah, I got this! Much Love to you all, and especially you my dear Bloggie. xoxo